WHAT!A girl raped in december, all are disturbed ! I am hurt but trying to remain emotionless!! emotionless,do u know why

 
                          During my childhood i was brought up with beautiful joint family system and temple bag round which is the foundation of my character and personality even today!!!! But as i grew i sensed the sensitivity of being a girl and felt a little in secured about that.Especially when i saw that i used to see my mother aunts discuss about the sexual approaches of other  negative men  happening within the known circles secretly, they would never talk about it openly to the person directly or to the higher authorities of the family. This actually even to some extent created a fear of being married in my small mind!!!!!

                My grandmother was a great lady and spiritually very strong, she taught me what it was to be spiritually competent as a woman and this still inspired me to be positive and face life strongly. Once in my high school days i spoke openly about my fears in the family, i saw a shock in the family members face, as though i spoke something wrong!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I even gave examples of known circles of my friends and relatives and why i fear men and marriage,it was a silent movie expression of shock in everybody's face!!! What was worse that the people whom i spoke with trust used it as a gossip tool against me and i got a beautiful name Arrogance and outspoken . To the extent that i saw tears in my mothers eyes, i decided i will handle these issues on my own. Probably i will study lots and create money and power and react against these issues.I need to be strategic i decided.Luckily i got a genuine childhood friend who is my current husband with whom i used to share truths, not to my parents or family.

                       Finally worked hard and became a manager for the  Learning and Development, branch of a well known MNC in bangalore.On the process of working there i realized people discussing in my team how some girls use their attraction and extramarital relations for promotions, i asked them why dont you all react if you have proof  !All of them gave me a weird look the reason which i realized later. Once personally i came across a incident where i saw a girl kiss the HR manager in open, i spoke about that to the IT manager and to the HR assistant manager.The IT head asked me to raise a complaint, though i did not reveal the name.Due to my i maturity i revealed the name and the incident to the assistant HR manager( Who was a fox in disguise).He went and told it to the HR manager and the girl and THEY RAISED A COMPLAINT AGAINST ME, THAT I WAS SPOILING THEIR NAME. Friends i was shocked!!!!!!!! I thought there were people around who saw the incident i thought and trusted they will support me.My CEO a good friend asked me "Priya you need to know positive politics when you work in companies to climb up the ladder.,some things please close your eyes." With all intentions he meant goodness for me for he knew my innocent mind.He asked me what i will do,i said my karmas will protect me. But theHR  VP had work rivalry against me and used the incident against me. I scolded the VP, I was angry, i reacted.(Today the VP is down with some major disease is not working there anymore.) I was angry  the VP HR asked me to apologize to the assistant hr and the girl and though CEO advised me to wait for a compromise, i put my papers,out of my emotional outburst of honesty not being valued(It could be imaturity,i dont know, but this incident changed my life positively. I realized i can handle being alone for truth).Some of my good friends and trainees felt very sad. I was emotional for genuinely you stand for a good purpose this too happens to you.My mothers eyes were again in tears, she was so innocent that she went to astrologers asking "Why is my daughter so outspoken and innocent? ,why cant she think about her future and life" I was married then and my husband too thought i was interfering in unwanted issues of the society.It took one to two years to get out of this pain of being a innocent victim of a unknown incident.But i came out stronger, for i believed in karma. I am sure the karmas will protect me, and all have to be answerable for their karmas before death. BUT FOR ME IT WAS TOUGH PHASE IN MY LIFE, I WAS SHOCKED, TO SEE THE REALITIES BEHIND THE CORPORATE POLISHED LIVES!!!
               Today i am more calm and don't get that angry at things around me. Thinking why should i make my parents, husband ,child and well wishers sad in my pain!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! If you react this too happen to us  in our country, for small issues at family, companies, then let the small negative people increase in no and create a hell of life around !!!!!!!!Still i am angry but i create my world of dance music,small time jobs and beautiful world around, still with the fear that my son has to go back to this world ,this society.Still searching the vedas ,the yogas and the autobiographies of wonderful leaders to lead a beautiful life and not to harm other  human-beings .I am leading a beautiful life the way i understand it every second , but  what happens when you react for issues around , ask to genuine people who has reacted. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHEN THE PROBLEMS ARE BIG ONLY DO WE SEE THEM?????Does a woman have to be treated this badly to understand something wrong is happening around us, have you tried reacting to small issues around you, you will then learn what it is to stand alone and be enlightened!!!!

          One of the commissioner of cochin a  good friend of mine told me "Priya ,before you speak truth, against people with POWER create power ,money and position, OR ELSE be prepared to be harmed and killed"!!!!!! I too don't want to live still in fear want to speak openly still want to be protected as a female!!!! But can understand what mothers mean when they say please be careful be strategic!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!