Friday, 1 February 2019

BEING A WOMEN

                         Being a women was a very magical experience as a child,cousin,sister, wife,mother,lover,Manager,Trainer!!!!!!.I enjoyed being a women completely But the challenges of being a women was also really high.

                   As a child was reminded that i cannot speak loudly as a girl child.Was scolded made alone in relatives circle and questioned, when i expressed honestly that i was in love . Was really confused about pranayam then, because it was a beautiful feeling that came naturally without any expectation to a childhood friend,my innocence and honesty was attacked and questioned especially by the women of the family.I felt quite hurt when a close aunt of mine Beenaunty took the  initiative to isolate and hurt me in public from my 24th year till today,for the simple reason that i loved and i married her sisters son, I think i was hurted as a women in my childhood more by women than by men.I was shocked that the importance and greed for money ,position and power could make a women torture a women so politically and with so much of cruelty and wickedness.
                                            With all challenges let me remind i loved being a women.Studied more ,read more and worked harder to retain my originality,creativity, courage,honesty and identity. Got married stood through all cruelty of the aunt and her family,though it was really tough .
               Did my MBA, and i thought that education and job would help me face the challenges .Went to Bangalore,joined an MNC,was shocked to find women sell their identity,body and character for positions and fame.Still wondered am  i stupid girl from the village????Tried to fight for values ,identity and quality at the corporate too. but found that the beauty of the power was really powerful influence.I had strong men to support me.But here again women was the greatest challenge i faced because i was a challenge to their beauty and power. I started thinking should i work on my beauty and power to strategically manage these women. Values was something i saw degrading in society i was hurt,

                                     My husband reminded me,how long will you fight with the people for values , cant you focus on your life and live happily.But then i became a mother and i realized my inner natural strength of sacrifice ,patience,love , passion creativity and intellect.I decided whatever i will not compromise on my values and skills.

   15 years of  profession still met only very few women with real character and skills.The women were more interested in using her skills and identity to pull down another women. If only we women would support each other genuinely to grow as real women.There is a huge power of nature inside the women ,if she focus on Love,Trust and Respect for her friend women, that itself will change this world!.I still sincerely love being a women,because i am meeting more beautiful women too with time, I LOVE BEING A WOMEN,IN-SPITE OF ALL THE CHALLENGES WOMEN GAVE ME MOST IN MY LIFE BECAUSE THESE CHALLENGES ONLY MADE ME A STRONGER WITH TIME.But going through them for the first time was scary.IF YOU SINCERELY LOVE BEING A WOMEN IF YOU CANT HELP ANOTHER WOMEN PLEASE DON'T TROUBLE ANOTHER WOMEN,IS MY GENUINE REQUEST.Women look deep inside you there is a powerhouse of natures creativity love and intellect hidden inside you, use them to make this world a better place.There is more to life than property acquisitions ,power,name and politics.

                           I LOVE BEING A WOMEN STILL,BECAUSE with time i had to sharpen my skills and character to face the tougher challenges, and i discovered that power inside me though more meditation and skill development.And quite happy to be associated with real beautiful women too!!!

TRUST! Travelling taught me a new lesson!!!

Trust!! Travelling 2014 to mukambika it  taught me a new lesson!!!

                         As i was returning from Mukambika to Cochin and i arrived in the railway station ,i realized that the ticket was booked by the agent on the wrong date. I had a great friend Chandru as the driver, vacation time no chance for another ticket and the time was 11.45 pm midnight.  All the fellow passengers told "Madame you are a single lady ,go back,single lady in general compartment not safe,vacation time!" I looked at Chandru. He asked me " Madame you want to travel back today. just get inside the AC compartment , nothing will happen, trust the nature the god" .All so called educated people looked at him and smiled , in his dressing also it was obvious his uneducated village bag-round. For a change and because  i was in a mind-setting for taking risk i decided to listen to chandru, to trust. Chandru ,the village driver.

                                      The train just arrived the platform , it was 12.15 am, chandru looked and smiled innocently and said, " Agent's mistake not your' s get inside the AC compartment nothing will happen to you madame, i am sure, godess will protect you" I just went by his words, all the other passengers assured me that TTR will definitely throw me out for it was the season time.
       I got inside the train , i said chandru if the TTR throws me out what will i do, he said trust the godess, nothing will happen madame. I felt funny, my husband was also scolding me to go back to mukambika. As i entered the TTR was surrounded by 8 people with the waiting list ticket, and there i was without a ticket even!!!!
                           I said what happened to me and how i realised the ticket agent misbooked my ticket one hour back in the station. The  station master said madame please get into the general compartment you cant even dream of being here with the wrong ticket.
             I  just stood in front of him pleading him to stand and travel at least.  For the general compartment was so crowded. I told myself -TRUST PRIYA TRUST!!!!The TTR said  i have to move out . I just stood there without speaking anything and just trusting. After 10  minutes the TTR , if any fellow passenger, allow you can sit till Mangalore in their birth. 

                   I went and sat near a kannadika lady, my god she screamed and called her husband. Her husband shouted " Hey lady this is our birth , can you stop troubling us and move out. I felt so bad. One more confusion in the train and the TTR would throw me out. I walked foward. I woke a girl from sleep and 1am in the morning. I told her my situation i asked her if i could sit in her birth till mangalore. She woke up and smiled and relied sure!!!!. Sullenly i saw her get up and ask me if i wanted to sleep in her birth. She will sleep with her mother. Her name was Rose, i was shocked that people could be this  friendly too. Then she asked weather she had to wake her parents to help me out. We spoke for some time and both of us slept sitting in the birth.

      Suddenly the TTR came to me and said , "Mangalore i will go another TTR will come , i dont know what you will do." I told him what Chandru reminded me, " Sir not my mistake,  ticket agent did this to me can you please help me trust you to help me in this situation. MAGIC WORKED!!!!The TTR spoke and made arrangements for a safe jouney from Mangalore to Ernakulam with teh new TTR. All people i met that day were strangers but all helped me for my whole body language probably showed that i trusted i the greater force of god and goodness inside them.

   As i travelled and slowly got my sleep, i reminded myself  " PRIYA TRUST IN THAT GREATER FORCE CLALED GOD AND NATURE AFTER DOING YOUR KARMAS, FACE THE REALITIES AND STAY FOCUSED. As i was travelling Chandru called to see if i was safe. I reached cochinat 1pm.And chandru called again and said, goddess helped you this time but next time please don't repeat the same mistake madame!!!!

Saturday, 27 June 2015

PRANAYAM


PRANAYAM


                    Me and my son went to see the movie premam, while returning my son said ama premama is so beautiful  expression of a good human. I said yes. Its really beautiful expression to be in love he asked me, i nodded. Then i saw him in deep thoughts and smiling to himself.





                  Then he continued " Ama my teacher preethy madame is so beautiful, the way she talks ,the way she treats people, the way she smiles the way she gets angry, everything about her is beautiful." Initially like every mother i thought what is my son telling. Then as i smiled and i was conceptualizing what he said i understood what he said. He was meaning that this particular human-being gave him a high positive feeling  about the total expressions of the persons interactions and being.


               If you look at lord Krishna, the 3 characteristics in him are
  • Anandalahari
  • Premalahari and 
  • Soundaryalahari
                      It is our birthright to enjoy joy, premam and soundaryam. We are spiritual beings born human is what i believe. We have the right to be in joy, premam and enjoy beauty being a human . Another person can influence us positively, but we should not allow the negativity to defeat the KRISHNA IN US. 

    THEN came my sons next intelligent question " Ama do you still have pranayam to Bava ?( My husband-Rajeev krishna ). I said yes. But you differ with him in so many opinions ,especially the way his family tortures you and he is so silent about it. I said " Rishiraj mahi i have duty also with pranayam, that i say no firmly to certain things to your father ,which stand against my Vision, mission and values  and  has got nothing to do with my pranayam for Rajeev Krishna" My son just hugged me and said " Ama i love you, you rock".I said  " Rishi life is too short to hate people and too beautiful to be stupid, without doing our duty!!!
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               I told pranayam is a beautiful feeling Rishirajmahi in nature inside and outside you. Accept the pranayam and dont forget your duties too. he gave me a naughty smile. I am sure he is going to rock in pranayam, along with his duties.!!! After all my output of pranayam Rishirajmahi is going to make his life more beautiful in pranayam. I was in pranayam, i am in pranayam and i will always continue in pranayam till i die, its my birth right.

Sunday, 20 April 2014

TOUGHNESS TRAINS US TO BE PREPARED FOR THE ULTIMATE-DEATH

               " Last week was a tough week for me at , work" I told Rajeev krishna, my husband. I think according to horoscope my time is little bad, i am being blamed at work for things i have not done. I expected a consoling dialogue from my husband. As i  was patiently waiting for a good consoling dialogue from my husband, he shocked me by his answer.
      He replied very softly and firmly  " Priya Sivadas you know Gandhiji was killed and Subash chandra bose was treated very badly, they were great people who did so much of sacrifices for the country, com-on if they can go through bad times, shutting their mouth, why cant you???? In life sometimes when our time is bad  and people treat us badly we might have to just go through it!!!!" NOW THIS MADE ME THINKING.
                          
                     Though  i thought my god what happened to my childhood friend and husband Rajeev Krishna, thought about the words that he said. Very true when life is tough some times when people treat us badly we have to be silent and just pray!!
                                  Then i spoke to my mother my state of mind and also told her that i have enough proof with me to spoil the life of the person who is troubling my life and she replies " Priya, don't treat people badly, because they treat you badly.  Just relax leave it to nature and god. The person who troubles you also has a family, how bad would the family feel if they know the truth?" I asked " Ama so you don't feel bad the person treats your daughter badly? " She replied " Priya , i am 62 years in this world, i trust god to that heights in my life , those who do bad are answerable to god and nature, let us not waist our life correcting and humiliating others, focus on your duty and the moments of life , i am happy the way my daughter is, and i trust completely that she is protected. The tough times you go through in life will teach you to be more humble and closer to god, and also make you realize, how you should handle Power,Position and money , when it comes to you"
                      
                                                       I really felt lucky that i am surrounded by a great husband and a wonderful mother, who is accepting the life as it is. And trust the nature and reality so much. I think these two people ,prevented me from taking revenge on a person who troubled me so much unethically. Some times the love, care and courage we get from home makes a real sense to awaken the wisdom to live in a enlightening manner. Life is more than Position, Power and Money, if you have these and still you have to destroy another human to be happy then who are U?

              So i am learning the grace of the toughness of life and learning to accept it, trusting nature!!

    The tougher the life the stronger we become,  when we react against the wrong things our legs may be washed away for a moment, that is okay. If we don't dare in life , then our identity will be lost for ever, hence dare to react when injustice happens, even if you are alone. Retain your identity and individuality, don't die everyday, live every day and die once bravely!!!

Thursday, 17 April 2014

WOMAN - LADIES OF THE WORLD ,PLEASE " BE THE CHANGE YOU WANT TO SEE"

LADIES OF THE WORLD ,PLEASE " BE THE CHANGE YOU WANT TO SEE" I JUST SAW THIS PROVERB IN A ADVERTISEMENT TODAY!!!  , and this blog came in my mind!



Woman we are powerful we play different roles in life, especially as a daughter, sister, wife and mother!!!
 All about a WOMAN ..

When she is quiet,
millions of things are
running in her mind
When she is not arguing,
she is thinking deeply

When she stares at you
she is wondering
why she loves you so much

in spite of being taken for granted.
When she calls you everyday,
she wants to know how you are doing.

When she Sm's you everyday
she wants you to reply at least once

When she says I love you, she means it
When she says I miss you,
no one in this world can miss you more than her

When she says I will stand by you,
she will stand by you like a rock

Ladies are always special
She is said to be the 8th wonder
She is always a priceless treasure

Never hurt her or take
her wrong or for granted..



               We need to develop as more wonderful lady's at work and society also. A woman is known for her wisdom, grace and love. Let us use that at work and the development of the people around us, the country and the world. My dear women out there ,please don't compromise on your values and culture of the growth in the professional life or status. We should never compromise on our values, we need to be soft , firm and strong. 


     Life is only once face the challenges strongly. Be firm when you have to , people may call it arrogance, but you need to be clear about what you do. Stand up, even if you are alone for your rights, don't allow the goddess and the goodness  inside you die everyday!!Please


Wednesday, 16 April 2014

TRUST THE GOD INSIDE YOU

                                       I was going through a confusion at the work place. As i was relaxing on the problem a friend told me : " Priya if you feel you are right surrender to the nature and leave the rest to god" .though i was angry after doing this i could accept the reality and be my true self.

     On the process of learning more about me and the conceptualizing the the problem i was in i learn few lessons:
1) How much ever knowledgeable we humans are we don't decide the sunrise or sunset or tsunami!

2) What you give you will get back.

3) Never use the  power or position you have to manipulate only your self growth.

4) When problems come beyond your control or understanding , surrender to nature trust in god.

5) Nature has a plan for us, trust that.

 6) At times silence is the best tool.

7) If people mysteriously comes to help ,you when you are in a problem , that is the NATURE'S SIGNAL THAT SHE IS THERE FOR YOU!!!!


                      As  i was thinking of all this i reached my dance class today after my morning walk. I love dancing my way out especially when i am so focused with nature.Suddenly , i saw a baby lying near the lap of my  lady who is 3 months old burst to laughter, looking at the dance. I felt beautiful and wonderful looking  at that innocent beautiful creation of god. An i wondered if energy is communication, and weather we humans are really blessed to speak without words to this level. My new area of research COMMUNICATION WITHOUT WORDS!!!!!. Trusting the god inside me to face problems and grow beyond problems for a greater reason of life.TRUST FRIENDS TRUST THE GOD INSIDE YOU!!!