BEING A WOMEN

                         Being a women was a very magical experience as a child,cousin,sister, wife,mother,lover,Manager,Trainer!!!!!!.I enjoyed being a women completely But the challenges of being a women was also really high.

                   As a child was reminded that i cannot speak loudly as a girl child.Was scolded made alone in relatives circle and questioned, when i expressed honestly that i was in love . Was really confused about pranayam then, because it was a beautiful feeling that came naturally without any expectation to a childhood friend,my innocence and honesty was attacked and questioned especially by the women of the family.I felt quite hurt when a close aunt of mine Beenaunty took the  initiative to isolate and hurt me in public from my 24th year till today,for the simple reason that i loved and i married her sisters son, I think i was hurted as a women in my childhood more by women than by men.I was shocked that the importance and greed for money ,position and power could make a women torture a women so politically and with so much of cruelty and wickedness.
                                            With all challenges let me remind i loved being a women.Studied more ,read more and worked harder to retain my originality,creativity, courage,honesty and identity. Got married stood through all cruelty of the aunt and her family,though it was really tough .
               Did my MBA, and i thought that education and job would help me face the challenges .Went to Bangalore,joined an MNC,was shocked to find women sell their identity,body and character for positions and fame.Still wondered am  i stupid girl from the village????Tried to fight for values ,identity and quality at the corporate too. but found that the beauty of the power was really powerful influence.I had strong men to support me.But here again women was the greatest challenge i faced because i was a challenge to their beauty and power. I started thinking should i work on my beauty and power to strategically manage these women. Values was something i saw degrading in society i was hurt,

                                     My husband reminded me,how long will you fight with the people for values , cant you focus on your life and live happily.But then i became a mother and i realized my inner natural strength of sacrifice ,patience,love , passion creativity and intellect.I decided whatever i will not compromise on my values and skills.

   15 years of  profession still met only very few women with real character and skills.The women were more interested in using her skills and identity to pull down another women. If only we women would support each other genuinely to grow as real women.There is a huge power of nature inside the women ,if she focus on Love,Trust and Respect for her friend women, that itself will change this world!.I still sincerely love being a women,because i am meeting more beautiful women too with time, I LOVE BEING A WOMEN,IN-SPITE OF ALL THE CHALLENGES WOMEN GAVE ME MOST IN MY LIFE BECAUSE THESE CHALLENGES ONLY MADE ME A STRONGER WITH TIME.But going through them for the first time was scary.IF YOU SINCERELY LOVE BEING A WOMEN IF YOU CANT HELP ANOTHER WOMEN PLEASE DON'T TROUBLE ANOTHER WOMEN,IS MY GENUINE REQUEST.Women look deep inside you there is a powerhouse of natures creativity love and intellect hidden inside you, use them to make this world a better place.There is more to life than property acquisitions ,power,name and politics.

                           I LOVE BEING A WOMEN STILL,BECAUSE with time i had to sharpen my skills and character to face the tougher challenges, and i discovered that power inside me though more meditation and skill development.And quite happy to be associated with real beautiful women too!!!

TRUST! Travelling taught me a new lesson!!!

Trust!! Travelling 2014 to mukambika it  taught me a new lesson!!!

                         As i was returning from Mukambika to Cochin and i arrived in the railway station ,i realized that the ticket was booked by the agent on the wrong date. I had a great friend Chandru as the driver, vacation time no chance for another ticket and the time was 11.45 pm midnight.  All the fellow passengers told "Madame you are a single lady ,go back,single lady in general compartment not safe,vacation time!" I looked at Chandru. He asked me " Madame you want to travel back today. just get inside the AC compartment , nothing will happen, trust the nature the god" .All so called educated people looked at him and smiled , in his dressing also it was obvious his uneducated village bag-round. For a change and because  i was in a mind-setting for taking risk i decided to listen to chandru, to trust. Chandru ,the village driver.

                                      The train just arrived the platform , it was 12.15 am, chandru looked and smiled innocently and said, " Agent's mistake not your' s get inside the AC compartment nothing will happen to you madame, i am sure, godess will protect you" I just went by his words, all the other passengers assured me that TTR will definitely throw me out for it was the season time.
       I got inside the train , i said chandru if the TTR throws me out what will i do, he said trust the godess, nothing will happen madame. I felt funny, my husband was also scolding me to go back to mukambika. As i entered the TTR was surrounded by 8 people with the waiting list ticket, and there i was without a ticket even!!!!
                           I said what happened to me and how i realised the ticket agent misbooked my ticket one hour back in the station. The  station master said madame please get into the general compartment you cant even dream of being here with the wrong ticket.
             I  just stood in front of him pleading him to stand and travel at least.  For the general compartment was so crowded. I told myself -TRUST PRIYA TRUST!!!!The TTR said  i have to move out . I just stood there without speaking anything and just trusting. After 10  minutes the TTR , if any fellow passenger, allow you can sit till Mangalore in their birth. 

                   I went and sat near a kannadika lady, my god she screamed and called her husband. Her husband shouted " Hey lady this is our birth , can you stop troubling us and move out. I felt so bad. One more confusion in the train and the TTR would throw me out. I walked foward. I woke a girl from sleep and 1am in the morning. I told her my situation i asked her if i could sit in her birth till mangalore. She woke up and smiled and relied sure!!!!. Sullenly i saw her get up and ask me if i wanted to sleep in her birth. She will sleep with her mother. Her name was Rose, i was shocked that people could be this  friendly too. Then she asked weather she had to wake her parents to help me out. We spoke for some time and both of us slept sitting in the birth.

      Suddenly the TTR came to me and said , "Mangalore i will go another TTR will come , i dont know what you will do." I told him what Chandru reminded me, " Sir not my mistake,  ticket agent did this to me can you please help me trust you to help me in this situation. MAGIC WORKED!!!!The TTR spoke and made arrangements for a safe jouney from Mangalore to Ernakulam with teh new TTR. All people i met that day were strangers but all helped me for my whole body language probably showed that i trusted i the greater force of god and goodness inside them.

   As i travelled and slowly got my sleep, i reminded myself  " PRIYA TRUST IN THAT GREATER FORCE CLALED GOD AND NATURE AFTER DOING YOUR KARMAS, FACE THE REALITIES AND STAY FOCUSED. As i was travelling Chandru called to see if i was safe. I reached cochinat 1pm.And chandru called again and said, goddess helped you this time but next time please don't repeat the same mistake madame!!!!