At a conscious level when i got a call for the Kanyakumari programme i said no, for to get Permission from my husband for this wandering would be a little difficult i guessed. But at a deeper level i wanted to go for i had never seen the place and read some experiences of Swami Vivekananda and also intuitively felt i had to be there i wanted to the sense the mysterious nature there!!!. I remembered the quote in the alchemist book " When you love something genuinely with your heat love it and then set it free, if its yours it will come to you, and the trip came to me!!!"
I get a message from the organizer the morning of the trip to keep the mind open or free for the magics of the retreat. Though we are aware of all positive things around us and within us a small reminder is always helps. As my husband slept of we had to catch a moving train at 4am in the morning and the adventure began from the journey--Jumping the platforms and the trains!!!! And unusually my husband placed his hand over my head and blessed me with a smile and he said "As usual ,Priya with your unusual doubts please inspire the world and people!!!" I knew he was pulling my leg!!! I had a small nap in the train , I was woken by a confusion in the train that some fellow passenger lost a costly mobile. The tea boys and some cops were creating a loud sound around. One of the fellow passenger who was a engine driver by profession told me " Priya, its a joint effort by the robbers and the police men." This is the world "Maya management is important" , i followed my mothers advice of looking poor while traveling not to expose gold , laptop or mobiles, and to look poor.
I enjoyed the traveling, the AC saved me from the humidity and heat outside. Reached Kanyakumari and my friends came to pick me, to the Vivekananda retreat centre.I saw Veda my friend walking towards the platform,its nice to have a friend receive you at a new place. Rajmohan sir also send the car, the retreat center was close to the the station, on the way saw the shells a lots , which always reminded of -"THE KANYAKUMARI----THE SHELLS ,THE ROCK AND THE HERO SWAMIVIVEKANANDAJI!!"
As i entered the retreat center was happy to find swami vivekananda's picture and positive notes every where, what is this place waiting for me i wondered and i enjoyed the drive with driver nair chettan and friend veda.Had a warm welcome by Rajmohan, his sister Meenachechi and Shailaja. Felt nice with a little chit chat i was asked to take rest and freshen up from my room. Soon all of us met for the lunch and ther i found the remaining of the friends too. The presence of mini with her smile and care made me more comfortable for i knew she was my room mate, how mind tries to find comfort with familiarity and warmth i wondered. As i looked around i felt it was a long time that i travel led to a strange place alone. By 3pm all of us met for a talk by a guru from the Vivekanada Kendra, he spoke lots about --Rajayoga, Jnana yoga, Karmayoga and ???. He spoke about his personal experience to the spiritual path too. Then i gave my gift to Rajmohan sir which i had painted for inspiring me to be a part of this global forum and to be an entrepreneur!!. Evening we were supposed to go for a long walk to see the Kanyakumari sunset. Walked to the bus stand where a small bus arrived to drop us near the sunset point, i tried to find my comfort zone by sitting next to my friend and room mate mini. All of us were getting introduced to each other, the bus reached the place in five minutes and there we began walking towards the sunset point. Mini went with a friend , and i was left alone , wondering i looked around and smiled to my new friends. Barbra(Our Yoga trainer's), mother gave me a good company and her description of the swiss chocolates took me to a different world. To manage the taste buds i ate the cashew nuts gifted to us in the bag. After a long walk we reached the sunset point, gazing at the sun i went to a different world. All my friends were busy clicking the photographs and playing in the water. I was lost in the tuning of the nature when i looked at the son, i felt sad suddenly i wondered why,later i realized that it was my sensitive intuition that understood there was a debate waiting for me late night. The people with shell chains called me from my dreamy world with nature. And all of us walked back . It was inspiring to see meenachechi (Rajmohan's sister) ,walking with us though she was tired (I mean her body!!).All of us walked back , and then somebody reminded me that i had to speak that day evening. I was prepared to give a talk on Karma, but i was sure i will talk something else for my mind was tuned to something else. And i was a person who went by the" tuning of the moment"!!!. We reached back the training center, the sadness i sensed at the sunset point still did not leave me!!!, all of us had dinner and we went to the retreat room. I spoke, i don't remember even now what i spoke, for i spoke on my original experiences with life and karma. The next day's schedule was told, as i walked towards my room in the other corner of the retreat room, still my sadness did not leave me. I reached my room and my friend mini had some solid questions for me , and then i sensed why i was sad (unknowingly from the sunset point walk),my entity had sensed ,these questions of my friend. We had a long talk and discussion still the debate was not over, at one-thirty pm midnight. Then i told mini" When i have a issue end of the day, i sleep well and after my prayer and yoga in the morning, i do what comes to my mind first and i shall solve the debate thus." Went to sleep ,i usually try to sleep with a positive mind setting, but that day it was disturbing.Then i realized it was because i was going against my intent of the retreat "To sense the magic of nature Vivekandaji sensed here", to normal logical thought process . I was too tired to take a decision just slept of.The first day of the retreat ended thus.
Early morning we had to attend a homam also near the the ganapathy temple.On the 12th morning we had a great yoga by Barbra at the sunrise point i really enjoyed that and realised that as Raj mohan sir told" My dancing muscles were finding it tough to adjust to the yoga stretching!!!" And my logical thoughts that disturbed me last night during a discussion with my roommate i decided to sort it today for it was against my intent of the retreat. We will have a great trip to the Vivekananda rock , wow!I was waiting for this moment. All of us took a vehicle and went to the point. On the way had some discussions with a friend Karthik on thought management. As we reached the centre for the boating to the vivekananda rock my sadness in the mind increased, i wondered why!!!. Had a great time in the boat the dust of the place was so much with the speed of the boat . Finally reached the vivekananda rock.Enjoyed and sensed the nature there it was so BEAUTIFUL!!!I tried to visualize the entity of swami Vivekananda to swim towards this rock.As Karthik, one of my friend said Swami "Vivekananda rocks!!" The thoughts in my logical mind was disturbing , took a decision to throw the unwanted thoughts out. On the return journey i had a long chat with Rajmohan sir .He told " Priya every moment life is teaching you something new, learn to manage thoughts,people and events." oops, i still wanted somebody to remind me that, with my logical unwanted thoughts out of my system i felt more tuned to the place. FINALLY!!!.
We went to Kanyakumari devi temple, i really felt after seeing the god's face that she looks so pretty and happy she has met lord Shiva secretly for sure, my perception!!. (The story is that shiva waits for her due to some trap that lord narada maharishi created, hence this goddess is a kanyaka, --without marriage life long). The goddess looked so pretty in the nose ring, i just stared myself to see my nose ring, thank god i am married , i thought!!!What all thoughts come to the mind like the waves. I listened to the shell sound in my ears and also got gifts for people at home and friends. Returned back to the retreat center, had a long chat and drive with a friend Fayaz and chated about life and business. I got small shells with the name carved of all who came for the retreat, for i slowly realsied , that each individual here was teaching me something more about myself too!!.
Returned to the retreat center there were talks and after that i did not feel like doing yoga. It is so difficult for me to do things when i don't feel like doing them.I asked the permission of the yoga teacher Barbra, she said Rajmohan sir has to agree. Went and spoke to him, he said fine but do breathing exercise when we do yoga. I did some breathing exercise, then when i saw all were engrossed i yoga i, went for my long wandering walks. Sensed the place felt close to the entity and listening to the music of the leaves ,the dances of the birds and sensing my entity and the bliss-full climax experience at the retreat i slept on the floor,great was this experience!!! I was so close to my intent of coming to this place i enjoyed the enlightening nature forces to the maximum, this day. Night we had bag-ans and spiritual discussions which invoked my positive thought processes and the next day was the arrival of Dr.Prakashan Gurikal the magical man!!!The yoga classes by Shailaja and Barbra was magical, i practice them still every day, at-least weekly five days now!!!
Next day early morning on the 13th we had yoga by Barbra madame in one of the parks, inside the retreat center .Soon after the yoga and wandering with Bala and his photographs and peacocks, we rushed to our rooms. Then we had a group photo session. And all of us rushed to the auditorium for the inaugural function by the mayor and Kalari master Dr. Prakashan gurikal. We had a bhagan team and we enjoyed the bhagan team lead by Veda and Meenachechi. Myself, Ram and Shailaja used to hum the lyrics when we could not follow them. After the bhagans we had a great speech by Dr. Prakashan gurikkal and kalari performance by his team. The amount of cashew nuts i ate that day i was sure i will have etc punishments at dance classes by my dance teacher, back home. But my taste buds enjoyed them. Then we all had a good lunch and a small nap. Evening we had sessions which were so enlightening by Dr.Prakashan Gurikal. More than his kalari magic i was inspired by his humbleness and simplicity. He and his wife left early for a nap.As usual we had our spiritual discussions and bhagans for the day. I was tired i wanted sleep. Got 20 minutes to personally chat with Dr.Prakashan gurikkal, after that went for a good sleep in a new room.I just had to see the bed to sleep. I loved this Kalri guru the magical man.My room mate Mini was busy taking care of the special guests, i went and the bed just welcomed me for the sleep!!!.
Next day i was woken in the morning by Rajeev's valentine wish to thank that i was lucky to have him in my life was his love message!!! Of-course he taught me lots about love!!!. Though a joke i enjoyed the wish . I had a valentine wish from Veda also to be sensitive to my spiritual growth. All of us enjoyed the valentine wishes, and the journey started with bhagans and antakshari to the hanuman temple. The way was beautiful to the temple , Rajmohan sir reminded me to chant bhagnas and pray but i was lost in the beauty of the nature. We arrived the hanuman temple and we had good friends waiting for the temple who took us around and explained the stories behind the temple architecture and history.Then we had lots of vada and prasadam from the temple and went to another place of historical importance.
It was a mountain ad top of the mountain was a beautiful temple, i had a problem of fainting and feeling light when i reached real heights, still i climbed, everything was fine and suddenly i felt my body very light, i looked down, and that was the end of my climbing i sat there alone ,closing my eyes. Then Rajmohan sir requested his friend venu sir to help me down the mountains. Jokingly i said to myself "Climbing down the hill also we might require help though we might climb up alone!!!",on a lighter note. I felt very close to nature too at that point and the return journey was a quiet one for me. We reached the retreat center by afternoon, by then Dr.Prakashan gurikal and some of the participants left. Dr. Prkashan Gurikal blessed me saying "Priya you have a unique intuitive power inside you develop that with practice, it will be useful to mankind, be careful also with this powerful weapon" Took his blessings and bid him farewell and left to the room. Evening we had yoga by Shailaja madame and some discussions and also all shared their experience of the retreat.
Next day morning it was raining heavily as unusually and i wanted to sleep, after a great journey, left a note to Rajmohan sir and enjoyed a great sleep.After that rushed to the retreat point all were doing yoga, quietly joined them for yoga. Then some discussions in group and had personal discussions too with some . Packed the bag, and bid goodbye to all, the leaving the retreat after lunch was sudden. In the station i thought about Swami Vivekananda, and his teachings. Brought lots of books too from the library, but wanted to read the "Wasted death",By Rajmohan Pillai.As the train arrived i asked the TTR for a AC compartment for i wanted to read the book the wasted death. With the vadas and the cashews and the book the journey was wonderful returning back home. As i arrived Cochin i completed the book and took a strong decision not to waiste my life and to have a beautiful death, which can happen any moment. Rajeev my husband and my son came to pick me in the station, i reached home ,i felt i missed the moments and friends at Kanyakumari. I said "Priya its over, tomorrow back to work" .I loved the kanyakumari but the moment is over and this is the moment i had to write it forget it and live the next moment!!! A different journey is always a shift of experience of a mysterious selves of our entity and life! Thankyou Y2S, for this spiritual journey of five days at kanyakumari!!!
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